you, doing that thang you do

i cut my hair.

i shouldnt make it sound so drastic but it really
is a different look, i feel.
say hello to a naive, school girlish looking char.

and later today, i'm heading back for my highlights (:

thank goodness the flu bug's leaving me
what kind of girl falls sick when she turns eighteen?

mmmm.
makan sutra with the IHers! (:
YAYY.
AND.

i look forward to lunch and dinner with the loves of my live.
AIYAH.

p.s PIG, you really should be here.

you're simply the best

what kind of random title is that, i know
but you see,
i'm using wireless which might well disconnect anytime now
my creativity juices dry almost instantly.

anyway,
mr and mrs smith with Anne was pretty fine.
well,
lets just say i ignored Albert's critical feedback
and enjoyed it (:

tmrw, once again
i'm mtg my laughing/ movie partner
for A lot like Love.
Hello Ashton. :) :)

all i can say now
is
i'm down with a flu.
so this is what it feels like to be sick -
awful, pain, lazy.

my birthday's on Friday.
CU-POs are mtg (: YAY.

sigh
my heart goes out to the family
who's teenage boy drowned at some dam while fishing.
double sigh,
the mother was so disraught.

oh.
and mum and i went shopping today
um
our supposedly great spore sale's
was so so disappointing.
hey, for once, i walked into mango without grabbing anything to try on?
that speaks volumes.

my goodness.
this is so random!

lets just say the next post will have fewer points
and more interlligent paragraphs (:
catch you soon.

right before you

its friday afternoon.
i'm not painting the town red or checking the hot spots in spore.

there's nowhere else i'd rather be
than at home, on a couch, in front of a tee vee.
(hey my rhyming is improving by the day, man)

sri lanka was a real eye opener
it was everything from getting leeches in my shoes to riding an elephant.
i bid farewell to what is known as a third world country with 19 million people.
(spore only has 4, so it was bustling)

ah, on top of all the cultural exps
i made a new friend- Buddhika ! (house, mobile number and e mail inclusive)
hey, i was pretty thrilled to meet someone interestin thousands of miles away :D

leaving spore, without a laptop,
i clung on to my Singtel Roaming Service :D
i HAD to sms, or i'd have died.

yuns and i are gonna take dance classes (:
also, i might apply for relief teaching with SN (thats if they need helpor want me, whichever.)

bumming around has never been easier
but somehow,
better things could fil this space
instead of the heat, technology and food.

take care all (:
love (:

and it wont be long

off i go to sri lanka/ colombo ( actually i have zilch idea where i'm going)
not a clue.
nope.
zero.

adventurous huh. (:
and apparently, its going to be a cultural experience
but if i come back all sri lanka-ish with a weird accent and oh so off dressing
i give you the permission to give me make over.

so the flight's at 10 plus
just me myself mum and dad !

and if there's anything
anything at all
call the mobile
its + 6 5 9 6 7 7 2 8 8 0.

when i get back,
i would love to do the below:

> mr and mrs smith
> harry potter 4
> the movie abt..(sth sth love) with ASHton Kutcher. i think i got his surname wrong.
> watch all the movies in town
> meet the relieved people from melbourne..
> HOUSIES, where are you?
> floormates (: (:
> IHers
> SN (ggottaaa feel the love man, feel the love)
> CU-PO
> try to meet sammieee and rest of jewems. (:

everyone, take care of your health. (:

to those still having papers,
hang in there.
LOVE =)

i'm off to squeeze 6 days of stuff into my hanh carrier.
whoo.
small clothes ;)

thank goodness

you see, before i want to say anything, i'd like to say a big Thank Goodness for the invention of the internet :D
becuase without which, i wouldnt be able to keep in touch with those i loveeee.

ahh, digressing.

last night
j's surprise to bring li and i tog was awesome (: i really missed that girl
then we headed to Thai Express for somewhat express like service
ate talked ate more and we still havent talked enough
just becuase they're my girls and we will never exhaust things to love about

then the action, drama violence and oh-so-hot christian bale came.

i caught BATMAN BEGINS with li and j. (one of the many people on my 'loves' list)

would someone love to watch Madagascar, Mr and Mrs Smith, Monster-in-Law with me?
i guess i'll have to wait for the darlings to complete thir exams
come home to Sunny Sing and sllllllllaccccccccck with mmmmmmmeeeeeeee. (:

yes anne, you need to come back soon (: (:
and mel :D our tanning session is DUE !

the days have been reduced to...

• - waking up at 7 (thats too freakin early)
• - making my own brekkie (v proud, thankyouverymuch)
• - slack ard.
• - take afternoon naps
• - sometimes, such as today, i wake up at 3 pm
• - being a TV junkie and watching everything from Animal Planet to HBO
• - sms-ing ( HMN. yeah )
• - dying to watch all the movies. (someone step forward pls)
• - looking out for kyrie (:
• - eating all cuisine BUT western (melbourne's done its share for me, thanks)
• - re-reading magazines and articles i get my hands on
• - wondering where the exhiliration of turning 18 went to

and crap. is it me or is father's day coming soon?

my sixth sense says..

this sunday. oooh. father's day while i'm at sri lanka is just cool.

this means, i need to create sth by tonight/tmrw (:

RAH.

off i go to watch more chinese tv serials and be the tv junkie that i am.

keep the spirits high, honey

okay, hello i'm here with some slow connection speed which reaches nowhere near the International House's speed, but
AH
bugger.

moving on, today i had meeting with eddy tan, some manager in charge of club suites and what nots.
i had this chit chat session with her which took me to places such as
'so tell me, what're you strengths and weaknesses'
tell me it was an interview cos i sure didnt go there with such prospects.

well, on the girly side of things, its been instant atrraction
(:
to two tops from MNG (:
also, i purchased a pair of dangling ear rings from Perlini's :D
the true girls is showing herself.
bt somehow, only in spore.
(: i'll make an attempt to dress more girly next semester? -shrugs.
apparently, i made a promise so..

i wonder if my floor people read this?
but i'd like to thank them for being them (:
for bringing my suitcase down for me. (plus eddie kenny and the pig)
and for clearing up some parts of my room.
AI LIN, thank you.
someday, lunch'll be on me (: just our floor.

tmrw is slack day at home.
friday, i'm heading of to Sri Lanka (:
will be back next thursday. :D

for now,
life's pretty damn good.

the number's in the previous entry if you want to meet up for coffee.
love (:

lost & one tree hill

thats all my life's abt at the moment.
must be some smart pig's fault.
but its even worse when you take home the smart pig's one tre hill CD.
so
i'll shut up.

but besides that, i'm going to the hospital later.
to visit (:

well HELLO i'M BACK ON THIS SUNNY ISLAND CALLED SINGAPORE.
as bimbotic as this sounds:
give me all the magazines you can cos i'll read them
give me all the outlets you can cos i'm going shopping
give me all the time i have for the lovies who arent studying. (:

and for those mugging now, i'll meet you in 2 weeks time.
mids're are more impt, i def understand.

and if you want to get me,
its 96772880 (:

LOVE (:

if you have 5 more papers and a little lost,
remember i'm right here to be an alarm clock or whatever.

.

i was at a loss while thinking of what title i should use.

maybe its the whole idea of WATCHING LOST that MAKES ME LOST.
i dont know
what do you think/
i'm too lost.

sigh.

leaving IH..will be an interesting experience, probably even hard.
with people i randomly hug like kimmy, sarah and pat to name a few.
people i would like to hug.
i will end there.

but my room's in quarter of a mess and i'm leaving at 1.
wonderful, wonderful me. i still have about 6 hours more to pack.
but what i wish to do. is to stay up and write notes.
notes to people who matter.
notes to people i will miss a lot.
notes to show that i really care though i somehow dont show much concern for.

this means, i need to get...get my packing done soon.
okay off i go.
and see you darlings in singapore.

you know?
i cant wait to be home (:

get lost

so at the moment, i'm watching lost.
yes, its open in windows media player so i'll make this quick.

I'M REACHING SINGAPORE ON SUNDAY NIGHT :D
9PM to be exact.

i cant wait to see the darlings in spore (: (: really, i cant wait.

and i'll miss the loves at IH also (:
maybe...pigs might fly.

BANG

shoot me, somebody, for blogging so much.
this can only mean one thing - i've got too much time to spare.

but that is not the case.
since tmrw is the crim exam.

cheers (:
that means,
three more days to going home.
i love this countdown thing.
cheers to maths, all of a sudden (:

the false alarm

its three pm in the afternoon, i'm sleeping, an alarm rings.
not my phone alarm, or the desk alarm.
but

the fire alarm
from greycourt.

i woke up worried to be told by andrea 'no lah, i think its a bell'.
okay.
look down to see a whole buncha people outside greycourt.
sth's up, right?

then ask eddie. and i get the story.

its wednesday, i remind myself once again.
4 more days to home.
2 more days to crim.
( : YES !

the thrill is made better with i Tunes. (:
i must say, craig david's got a smooth voice.
and DAYS have been GREEN with whatshername
(:

whatever floats your boat

in what i deem as an attempt to vent my frustrastration for MSN screw ups,
i'm here. complaining.

MSN fails on me when i need to console important people. when encouragement is needed. when conversations are struck. but NO. msn hates me as much as cats hate their tails to be stepped on.
RAH. i'll roar the whole scheps down. i could, believe me. but its an indecent time of the morning/night.

RAH
ROAR
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
and i think i'll be sleeping soon.
my body clock's turned so many aways i think i cant keep track.

haih.
i've never sighed so much in so little time.
even flying me to the moon and back's not gonna make a significant difference.

ALO

sometime last night,
after i spoke to Mum about things which disturbed me,
i felt like a load was taken off my chest.

i'm close to exhausted from an entire semester of nothing but researching, doing readings (& not even all of them) and work.

nobody said this transition was going to be easy, i know. but i'm pretty thankful for
everything from
staying @ IH to getting the hang of uni (and Melb uni, of all uniS).
it is comforting to know that i only have two and half semesters before a basic degree is completed.
and at worst, its like half a year of my life has gone down the drain.

but i wont choose the latter bec in this time of my life,
i think i've lived the real life. (i actually typed lie accidentally. HMN)

so all i can muster at the end of a semester is a sigh.
i await exhaling on friday, when crim is over. it would be bye bye semester one.
friday will be a day when i can actual smile like i have no worries.

just like mel said on hers, i think people our age are growing up fast.
too fast.

okay and while here i am writing this really reflective entry,
someone on the bed decides to mumble '"you have $4000 and i want $2000"
HUH? sleep talking.
this is entertainment. i must be v bored. ah well.

and believe it or not,
some people here think i'm not straight.
HMN. i am. right? hmn.

let me share the joy!
i'm not working this holidays.
this means... i get alll the time i want with:

• den den den
• kyrie & mummy
• anneeeee !
• shu doo doo
• LI
• JAE :D
• jewems :D
• cupo :D
• and many more
  

i'm thirsty. h2O pls?
this desktop is...weird.

moving on

hello loves. i just got up from my nap :D one hour still counted right.
although some people said its not enough. THEY'RE PIGS.

so j jas this really good way of making me reflect.
i didnt put in effort for LPAS bec i couldnt give a shit. (:
what i dont have passion for, i dont strive for :D
that...is a good and bad thing in itself.

so i officially hate the 6th of june.
its come and gone in a blur
and all i can say is..i'm thnkful its over.
(HELLO. THAT RHYMES !)
anyway
moving
on.

so ive lowered my expectations. if i do okay for LPAS, i'll be so thankful
if not
its not going to kill me.
ahhhhh so whatever doesnt kill you? makes you stronger. RIGHT?
deluded, i am.

scream, i shall.
i was suppsoed to scream at isaac the pig today. but then...i had no more eneergy left.
no more zest. i think i had lost it. sigh.
but nonetheless, cheers to 7am sleeping times and late afternoons.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

its pretty true, esp the first one. my gosh.

so i think i'm fine.
and for a while, i can exhale and inhale properly. without V.

and YES. I DONT LIKE TO KNOW ABOUT THE LANGUAGE AND POWER in china.
you know how people say never say never?
i'm pretty damn sure i'm NEVER ever ever going to take language studies.

thankyouverymuch. i think i've ranted enough.
love.

empty stomach

i actually thought of a well crafted blog entry on my way to and fro from submitting my essayS.
but nvm.

felt giddy walking back, like the yellow and green leaves didnt seem to look different anymore.

omg
what am i saying.

i'm in for a deep mess from Dad when i get home.
bring it on, i've already been emotionally battered.

...

its one am.
what i have is 30 words. great :D
i think the word count is....2000 ! whoooo hooooo.
there's just no way i'm going to sleep tonight (given the rate i'm going)

but my brain's.....stoned.
and it REALLY isnt helping that my hands and feet arent warm
sigh.

okay
i fear a NB.

one thing.
i'm NEVER taking LANGUAGE studies EVER AGAIN inmy life.
that i've alr promised myself. goodness gracious me.

OKAY man, OKAY

right.
i'm high, on V.
if you thought that was a new drug, bad on you!
its a drink which has really got me up and working. (:
gotta thank eddie ltr.

i'm also really thankful for my cheerleaders like jacklyn, kimmy and some others.
their notes are really sweet and were pleasant surprises.
i like the pink one jac slipped under my door (:
small girl with the mighty high voice :D -grin

so, hello first draft of the WMD essay (:
and it needs referencing and biblio. will be done.
then its work work work all the way.

OH and I'M NOT DONE YET.
there's one more.
so tell me:
Whats the relationship between the langauge and political power in 20th century China?
well, i have a rough idea. but you need more than that to churn out a 2k word essay.
not funny, i tell you.

and while some of you might be relieved and glad for me tmrw,
thanks dears.
but its not over yet. ahhh, i'm hanging. hanging like a monkey on a sturdy branch.
oh gosh. what sort of analogy is that.
i hope someone keeps me sane before i really lose it tonight.

i've noted that:
- char can torture her body w/o smoking, alcohol or drugs
- my face goes mighty red when i'm stressed. talk abt good blood circulation (:

IF TIME WAS SOLD BY THE HOUR,
I'D BUY, ONE, A COUPLE, MAYBE 24?

i'm fine.
really.

do you trust me?

wake me up when ..

my head's a little ( okay, rather) painful thanks to coffee surging through my system.
can someone please say throbbing and heat pumping?
sigh.
time's flying..real quick.

when i mean fast i mean faster than lightning.
in no less than 7 days time, i'll be on SQ 228 (i think) on my way home
ahhhhh. my dahhhlings (: (:
such a lovely thing to lookforward to. the girls - beams!
or i could coerce my Mum to let me stay one more day if i cant finish packing.
well. then i can meet anne ! :D

okay i love my girls. its scary. (: but i dont care :D

my life revolves around essays, work, exams, and late night calls.
HAH. anyway, i couldnt sleep last night.
sigh.

i'd love not to sigh cos happiness is such a joy :D
but i cant help it.
on monday i will scream at my fellow pig ! share the joy righttt.
okay, i will be strong.
but i need a stress ballllllllll.

smile, i shall :)

i hope everyone is having a better time than i am :)

lovelovelove

four years gone too fast.

friday night and the light's arent low.

as insane as three posts a day can be,
i'm up and jumping at a quarter to four.
i'm listening to Dancing Queen on some girl's i Tunes (:
undoubtedly my life saver for the mo.

I wonder if Dith and Va remember what they did with me on stage for
sth like a Best Youth Award. (or sth close to that, i've got memory as bad as my fellow pig)
the point is, we did such silly, spontaneous and embarassing actions!
oh gosh. sn has much to miss. and as promised, i'll go back with dora for orange bowl (:
in short, i'd love to have the sn days back.

my birthday wish since last year has been an unrealistic one no one can ever fulfill for me.
if i could get a personal pilot and jetplane, that'd be really great (:
but i'm fantacizing. becuase no one, no matter how rich and famous, is going to do that for me.
a
in 10 days, i'll be
-all ready to see my dear harry potter. love :D
-arguing with my sweetheart of a brother
-planning how to slack to the max before working during the beginning of july.
-finding time to pick guitar/ drums up
-getting in shape (at the moment, round is THE shape)
-finding a way to visit the loves from IH (: (its the msia ones that are a tad too far)

apologies if you've read anything in coherent.
take care darlings ( : even those who're holidaying how.

replies:

den: you know i want to see you larrh. need i say more? (:

isaac: this week will probably be the best it can get. (: i believe you can do sports. really.

anne: hello darhhhling (: i hope to see on the 11th morning. or 10th evening. anything for a girl who's turning 18 :)

andrea: thanks to my awesome marketing skills, i think that girl's compelled to come to IH. (: (:

HMN.

mmm. dinner was a-okay.
it gave us chinese (asian, singaporean.all the same) this nostalgic overwhelm.

oh, then they were serving seconds when our dear vassi realised the fish wasnt cooked.
anyhow, my liking for green day songs is growing with the day (:
first it was Wake Me Up When September Ends, and now its all sounding great (:

for the past hour, i've been surfing and doing just about everything but work.
my weekend's jam packed.
its so unimaginable- the stress i'm going to be put under.

Come Monday, I will have two essays due.
both are 50%
2000 words each.
its so scary,
its not funny telling people i've got so much work on my hands anymore.
right. so who said the life of an ARTS (media and comms) student was easy?
NO. not now.

so Mum had extra good news to tell me today.
her good news = i have no holiday :(
cos Char The Lady has events on manage help out with.
ohhh ma ma. LALLALALALAL. all the way to tanjong pagar.
its not hear home.
I HAVE NO LIFE. I CONCLUDE.

this was the holiday i thought i'd be going to cafe's to dine with

• Family
• shan
• shaun
• my darling CU-PO
• jewems
• st nicks seniors and juniors. fooood :D
• IH-ers (makan sutra weekend)
• the housies (:
• the floormates

but my month's eaten away with the realities of life.
i love my Mum.
except at times like this.I dont love her as much.
I'm a bad daughter.

ahhhhh.

my brain's pretty much fried at the moment
my eyes are closing
my heart's got the adrenaline
my fingers's lost its momentum.

right. i'd say bad attempt at rhyming. but i tried.
hey, trying is crucial. esp when it comes to important decisions/issues.

so good afternoon everyone who bothers to visit my shrek site.
its almost 4. my assignment is due at 5.
WAS due. cos its in now.
my pretty blue folio, all neat and presentable, is sitting on someone's wooden, old, run down Melb Uni desk. it is waiting patiently to be swept away into a printer box for Winnie.

oh shut up really.
i talk to myself too much (well, only here. kelly talks to herself ALL THE TIME. so, go figure)

elation
joy
euphoria.
pure happiness.

(: (:

nownow, someone's interviewing me about IH. guess who?
its the dear random girl i met outside Tim's office (:

the innocent can never last

i made two friends today: outside an office.
for one, i didnt know this girl was from spore
the other was some random girl from my LPAS class. ( we both agreed we're NEVER going to take ASIAN studies ever again )

here's an anecdote. with the spore girl.
me: oh so..you're from? (expecting hk, china)
her: ah, spore.
me: *withdrew* HUH? REALLY. OH. OKAY.
her: why? do i look like i'm from China?

i was so tempted to say YES, sheesh. never mind that one.

was slping just now and Gary the maintainence guy came pounding furiously on the door.
somehow,
my sleep was interrupted. door was wide open and Gary stood there looking embarrassed
"next time, latch your door", he told me. who wouldnt be awkward?

thanfully, now, the blinds can work and lgihts're functioning so well :D i'm in brightness! sheesh.

hmm. editing work now (: its good. folio's all ready for tmrw =) for once, i'll submitt it bright and early, rather than 5 mins before they close the counter (: (: after that, i'll grab a latte. and thats not the end of it i'm telling you. it just means one down three to go.

bye bye.
wake me up when septemeber ends - Green day

righto

today, i finally read the book.
the one i abadoned for ages and ages.
but i'm thankful the situation called for it. (:

for all good things we give thanks and ask for blessings.

(:

my body clock's all screwed up.
but i'm still alive (maybe not kicking).
i think things're going to fall in place real soon.
tonight, day after, monday, friday.

then wheew. i'll be home. even before i know it.
11 days and i'm coming home.

the good the bad and breathe

breathe in...and out. in...and out.

as the exams draw closer, the emotional rollercoaster hits the bend sharper.
what previously was just a turn has become a stressful, high strung moment.
but why..?

exams. essays. assignments. lab reports. physics. (i hear its driving people mad) chemistry. biology. engineering. STOP. the faculties and subject reader is on the meb uni website. its www.unimelb.edu.au if you're really into it.

but for now.
there're more crucial things at hand.

not going to craft anything here.
i..
have to go.